manifesting miracles: how I manifested my daughter with Claire Gillenson
Dearest Dreamers - let's talk about miracles:
1. a surprising and welcome event that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws and is therefore considered to be the work of a divine agency.
One of my fave holiday classics (well, I have more than one favorite - it's hard to choose just one) is 'Miracle on 34th Street'. I totally still believe in Santa Claus - I'm not going to tell you how old I am, but let's just say I'm still a kid at heart, and I believe, with a capital 'B'.
I thought that this beautiful, bittersweet story that lovely Claire Gillenson has to share would be the perfect timing for the holidays, as her miracle story is a wonderful example of having the deepest faith and truly believing in something (and in this case, someone) that could seemingly be so intangible, come to life...
MANIFESTING MIRACLES: HOW I MANIFESTED MY DAUGHTER by CLAIRE GILLENSON
I first saw her during the summer lab of my first year in graduate school for Spiritual Psychology. She came to me in a meditation, a mop of black hair on that little head. I saw myself holding her in my arms, our eyes met. I knew in that moment that someday, we would meet.
In physical world reality however, this was completely different. I had been told by leading fertility specialists my FSH level was post menopause level already hence, would not qualify for any fertility treatments. No IUI IVF, donor eggs, nada. Then I saw her again.
I had stage four cancer when I was 19. No one talked about saving eggs in the 80's when they were trying to save my life. Well intentioned words and non-solicited advice was given. "I should count my blessings for being a survivor." "You can always adopt."
I began "seeing" her more often in my meditations. I dedicated journal entries to her, giving her my Chinese name "Kayman". I looked at what it meant to me to be a mother. Perhaps it wouldn't be through me biologically. I processed the guilt and grief I held around not saving my eggs. I healed my relationship with my own mother. Most importantly, I healed and nurtured ME.
Self-care became my priority. I "listened" intuitively to what my body and soul needed. I practiced meditating, free-form writing, yoga, gestalt therapy, acupuncture, macrobiotic diets, daily, all the care centered around me...and her.
In the Spring of 2007, 6 months after I began this "project"...I conceived naturally. The leading fertility acupuncturist in Los Angeles said it was a miracle. The same week my mother committed suicide. That is another blog post in itself, but I don't believe this was coincidental. When one door closed and another one opened.
Today, my daughter will turn six on the winter solstice. Like me, she too is highly intuitive. We are now in the process of "manifesting" or calling in spirit baby brother. I am grateful I get to use my intuitive gifts my mother passed onto me to help others "manifest" their inner knowings into reality. Stay tuned:)
I help people who are ready to move out of loss into possibilities. As an intuitive coach, I serve as a “human bridge” between pets and their parents. I also use my clair cognizance to be a “bridge” to grieving individuals who are ready to take a step towards their own healing. My approach is holistic, organic and ACTION ORIENTED. I love being of service as a catalyst to change. My “toolbox” includes a MA in Spiritual Psychology, grief coaching, bereavement facilitation, pet loss counseling certification, Reiki level two, Animal Reiki level two, EFT, and guided meditations More important than textbook knowledge, is my personal triumph over the many losses in my life; a turbulent and emotionally charged childhood, stage four cancer at 19, infertility, failed marriages and the suicide of my mother the week I found out I was pregnant. We are the same. If I can shift, so can you. www.ClaireGillenson.com